Joel Biroco - Kaos
An explanation for my long absence is called for. I left the occult "scene" in 1989 after what has become known as the ICAOS-BABALON working, after editing KAOS for five years. Despite the intensity of the working, and the sense of triumph I felt and expressed in KAOS 13, I knew even then that I would be leaving, for in the wake of the working I sensed but could not then quite express that despite this triumph I had ultimately failed in the occult task set me, simply because no-one understood me, no-one was ready for what we had done, or few were, not enough at any rate. Or sometimes I even felt that I had been betrayed by the occult force that had led me... up the garden path it seemed by a series of ever more seductive illusions. It appeared only a handful of people really understood the complex matters I was dealing with, which, in turn, were expressed from various states of inspired demonic madness.